I'm Telling You Emotion is Dangerous

Emotions
(Doc. GoodTherapy)

Emotion. Most of my friends think emotion is a bad word. Emotion means mad or angry. But for me, emotion is feeling. Your true feeling is your emotion. Well, I have to tell the truth that I'm not a person who often use feeling. I prefer to use my thinking more than anything. So now, maybe some of you who read this now have a question, "Why bother talking about feeling if you're not a feeling-attached person?"

Actually, I feel thrilled, haha. Talking about feeling is not my style, heck, yet I'm still one of the best person who can listen to the others. It's not my statement. They who "talk" to me state it.

I always have my comparison. I choose to use my thinking more than feeling because I think using too much feeling can affect in a bad way. Yet for thinking, I can load my brain before anything happen. Sounds simple, but no for me.

Take it as an example. I am a straightforward person. I'm not going to lie. This evening, I felt so disappointed with the two of my dance friends. Today is a selection day for the biggest event of my college. I'm not the one who will choose the performers, but God! They chose two people based on their personal specification! I know it, because they said, "We already have two names before there's even a group for this." I mean, what?! The two of you are not even helping me to speak with the people from the event, yet that's what you did?

Hang on a second. Those two people they chose didn't said that they want to perform for the event, BUT one of them told me to chat both of them directly. I already give up from that time. I know the both of them are great dancers, but still, can't you consider the other dancers? The other who willingly join of their own will! I hate this from the start of their influences.

If I'm not a straightforward person, maybe I'll write this as a poetry instead. (Ew hell, I don't like poetries. Cheesy.)

Does it link? There will be the biggest event of my college. My dance club will perform for them, need 5 people. There are two people who originally never said they want to perform for this event, but two of my friends insist that I have to chat them directly, ask them if they have interest to perform. They "agreed". The result is very obvious. Of the freaking course, both of them are selected to perform. Haha, funny.

But well, life is not fair after all. If I use my feeling instead of thinking, there will be no influences from them. They probably will not help me at all. Who knows? Because their "favourite" dancers are not in the group. HAHA TALK ABOUT BEING SARCASTIC.

I want to tell you, emotion is very dangerous. I prefer to avoid emotion and befriend the thinking. And please respect all of your friends.

There is another example. I want to do something for my class. I want to make it simple by joining those together, but there are no "yes" from my classmates. So, what should I do? Stay lazy and be quiet.

I'm not taking my class for lazy, but if my friends tend to be lazy, then so be it. Fuck.