I am a big fan of TVXQ!. On 8th of December 2021, one of the member, Max Changmin, released a mini album. It is his Japan album. That makes him represent TOHOSHINKI. TOHOSHINKI is the Japanese name of TVXQ!.

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This mini album title is Human, as for the main track, too. This article will talk about my opinion Human, the main track. I represent this article for Shim Changmin, one of the most influential person in my life.

When TOHOSHINKI's official Twitter account announced its release date, I was beyond excited. I was even planning to invest my money to buy this mini album, since the price is not that high. In other word, affordable. But, I back down from this plan. I realised I did not prepare more seriously for this heartwarming mini album. I didn't have enough money. I didn't even know the date of the MV release. So, when I opened YouTube, I was like, 'Huh? He released the MV already?' Pretty nice for declaring myself as a big fan, is it not?

Until I remembered one of Changmin's wise words. I do not exactly remember the actual phrases. He said to prioritized what important first. I think feeding myself enough every month, studying diligently for I am in the last year of college and doing anything I feel important rather than spend my time and money for a mini album that I can buy any other time. Changmin's mini album release is only one of many things that categorised as entertainment purpose. I know I can learn a thing or two from the MV, for perhaps I could direct an MV, too, but that is not the main purpose here.

So, to the song itself. I won't going to talk about the MV. Only the song (so, here I am, writing this article while listening to the song on YouTube Music repeatedly).

Nostalgic. That is one word that could describe the entirety of this song. We know Changmin present himself as a cyborg or super human. He is taking us from hundred or thousand years ahead. That's interesting (but this is Shim Changmin we're talking about, a person who have big interest of newest technology, so it is not that big of a fuss). It is like, he is trying to talk to us about something.

Ah, before I continue, I haven't read the lyric. I don't know the actual meaning behind this song.

In my deepest opinion, Changmin is trying to communicate with us about this earth -- what happened with the earth and humans themselves. If we continue to harm this earth or do things horribly repeatedly, there will be nothing left even before God call us to go to Heaven or Hell someday (from Muslim theory). He is trying to remind us. Changmin is trying to remind us this earth and the people are matters.

Don't you feel the same? Nostalgic. Perhaps most of you translate this song as lonely, too.

Honestly, I love him even more. Not in romantic term, mind you. I love him as one of my motivation.

'Sabishii'. I heard this word clearly. This word is Japanese, means it's lonely. I can understand. Imagine you have no one beside you anymore because this earth is damaged, like, totally damaged. Not many human left.

So it's represent in the MV itself. I cannot believe I happened to think the same as Changmin and the Director. And I am not joking. I did not write this article while imagining or watching the MV. So, what I think as nostalgic is true. Lonely is also true.

It's sadden me knowing I cannot do big things for this earth. I am not a person who hold special interest to nature, honestly speaking. I do feel sympathy, but I cannot find the right time to do the actions. I hope we will live safely in this earth much longer.

This is not a very serious article, yet I feel satisfied. Last night, I can finally express my feelings through self-talk, and today, I can finally let myself do something refreshing to express this feelings even more. I know I should learn to control my feelings (again), however this article is able to lift more of my emotional burnout.

Shim Changmin, for you out there, thank you.

Never in my life, I accept myself to intern in the office where father's working.

The thing is, whenever I go, I always hear father's name--that I am his daughter. It's not an entirely unpleasant thing, but sometimes, I felt like I just standing behind his shadow. Not my own.

Father always tell me he'd never register me as one of the intern if I don't have the knowledge and talent. But the thing is, how much he told his friends about me?

Almost everyone sees me as my father's daughter. So far, I only found one person who never talk about it. I know he hears about it from his friend or the other people, but he never mind it, at all. He sees me as me--as Pinky, not anything else. I hope I can work under him again the other day.

Not as a real officer there, of course -- I never intend to work under the same building as my father. Maybe while I'm still an intern. And you know, he's quite handsome himself, lol. Never in my life I ever consider someone at that workplace as handsome. This is the first time.

Just yesterday, my best friend told me he registered to one of television station -- one that I always consider to register too in the future. You know, we even talk about how it is if we work under the same building, again (we're on the same secondary school (senior high) back then).

That'll be interesting, but at the same time making me thinking even harder.

I want to pursue my dream as a Scriptwriter. I know the chance to work as a Scriptwriter in television industry is minimum. The workplace I always aim is film industry, place where many Indonesian director need more creative Scriptwriter. That's what I need if I want to pursue my dream.

Or even more, gaining experience from the outside industry. But one thing I know, film industry is the right place for me. Not that I think television industry isn't made for me, but the film industry is way more promising for me who want to pursue the Scriptwriter career.

I think I'll register to the same workplace as him, but I will register as a Scriptwriter in film industry, too. Yes. No matter what seems more interesting, my dream is always the number one thing I should pursue.

What we should gain from internship. (Source: Money Crashers)

 Sometimes, I just need to write what I want to write, not what I need to write. I mean, here. I actually find it amusing that me, Pinky N.A, trying to write "seriously" on a blog. Wow.

Okay, okay. I wrote this post because I'm hella sleepy. I need to finish my radio drama script (I've been extended it for 3 days now). For this, I'm trying to back to my night owl routine, drink a cup of coffee, set a comfortable working space, listening to musics suited to my current mood, setting notes near me, et cetera ... et cetera ... but I just can't find it.

Ah, now I feels like my brain's been refresh. This is what I want.

As a night owl, working in the middle of night usually give me so much energy and creativity. And don't blame me for my lack of morning get-up. I actually hate being a morning person. There are two things I would love to have if I can. First is never having the need to go outside forever. Second is never having the need to wake up before 11 AM (in other word, morning).

Foolish me. Of course I will never have those things.

Now, now, so, listening to TVXQ's songs give me boost. So much of it. Especially when I hear Changmin seonbae's vocal. (I just finish listening to Chocolate by Max Changmin).

For you who never visited this blog of mine before, I welcome you dearly! (If there is any, lol). This blog have more of my rant than any other else, trust me. More like an online journal. A not interesting journal to read, yeah? Well, sometime this blog helps me reduce stress, or even anxiety.

I'm listening to TVXQ!'s Catch Me. A catchy song, yes, if I could say (even if people said this song isn't original). Now Apology by Max Changmin. Ah yeah, I've been influenced (again) by TVXQ recently. Not that I have any issues with that, anyway.

Alrighty, I think I need to start write the script, then. You know, writing for script is veeery different from the usual writing -- like this one, as example. Writing a script is thrilling! I love it. Okay, yeah, I should go now, or else, this blog will eat me (I mean, I can't let go from here if I stay any longer, I think). Yeah, I think. Bye, for now.

(Source: myself)

Title      : Daily Lives of High School Boys; 男子高校生の日常; Danshi Koukousei no Nichijou

Genre    : slice of life, comedy

Episode : 12

Producers: Tanaka Kakeru, Ōshiro Hiroaki, Hayashi Yōhei, Satō Hiroshi, Wakanabe Ryūta

Director : Takamatsu Shinji

Assistant Director: Yoshimura Ai

Script Writer: Takamatsu Shinji 

Danshi Koukousei cover | Source: MyAnimeList

Daily Lives of High School Boys -- or I like to call it just Danshi Koukousei -- is an anime about everyday basis that will happen in high school boys' lives. Just like the title said. The three main characters of this anime are Tadakuni, Yoshitake and Hidenori. By the way, my favourite is Tadakuni. He always looks different from Yoshitake and Hidenori, haha, that's why I like him better.

You wouldn't find the anime to be continued. There are various scene an episode. Different story, different conflict, yeah sometimes related, but not always. It's a common thing in slice of life's genre. No major conflict. Just laid-back story you can watch every time you'd like to. Just what I need.

My cousin who happened to love this genre, so he recommended it to me. At first, I was hesitant to pick this anime as one of my go-to-watch this month -- I'm in the middle of writing slice of life radio playwright, so I kinda need it. I mean, my two main characters in script are girls, so why bother watching an anime about boys? But no, thanks God, I got plenty inspiration from this anime. In fact, I love it more and more, and by the time I finished watching, I can't stop the feeling of ... lonely. I'll miss this anime. I'll re-watch this anime!

The original soundtrack (opening and ending) are funny and memorable. I kept thinking the opening doesn't seem right to be the opening. At first. But through my watching time, I realise it does not matter anymore to me. It will be very memorable, and yes, it worked. The ending is so funny. What with that "ba ba ba ba ri ra ri ra ba ba" whatsoever? Hahaha! So addictive to listen. I can't even stop myself from singing. It easy to remember and memorable. If I ever heard of this ending soundtrack years from now, I wouldn't surprise to find I still remember it.

My favourite story is the ending actually, but haha okay, I'll pick a part. I like High School Boys and ... shoot, I forgot! Alright, whatever. I like the one when they play kick a can part. When they used Mitsuo's Gundam as the can. Hahaha, oh my Goodness. His precious action figure... I know they will never be "real" serious, and yeah I'm correct. They were just playing kick a can! Yoshitake and Hidenori, I mean. Bruh, hahaha.

As a broadcaster myself, I found it amusing that the Director used minimum shot type. Really, as laid-back as the anime can be, I never thought the Director -- I mean, Takamatsu Shinji sensei -- would use such simple shots, and thus, I can say, are amazing! The shots can deliver the story completely even with it minimum types. Such beauty... For example, like when they were talking about their lives while passing a volley ball. That was an amazing idea! It was simple yet surprisingly amazing! I can even learn from this anime: I don't have to push myself to use many shot types to reach maximum greatness, as long as I can deliver the message correctly.

I'll give this anime 5/5 stars! Happy watching and (perhaps) learning, my friends!

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It's nothing worth ... worrying, but she knew better than any other else that this feeling always come up at a time like this. Now, all that she can do is wait.

She really wish there are someone close by to talk to. Someone who will never judge everything she says. At the same time, she doesn't want anyone to come closer. She thinks she too dangerous to begin with.

'How come living like this is a bless?' she muttered while massaging her temple. 'I'd much love to be alone.'

For the first time in her life, she regret her wish. Wish upon something trivial yet unbecoming. She hate it. She hate it because that's what she need the most right now. Oh, how she wish she never let those words slip from her mouth.

Betraying herself was not the thing she ever consider before. The curses under her breath now become more visible to hear. She's done with.

And, she has nothing to offer to begin with. Will her smarty brain do?

'Having no rights to cry out my tears, speak out what I feel or even doing what I desire are such horrible feeling. Why must they do this to me?' The clutch on her blouse become tighter for every word she spite. 'It's not like I did something out of norms, anyway.'

By the sword that held her life, she swear to go back after all that's done. She wrote this with mixed thoughts, like it was on river.